Nights in White Satin

 We were talking and I must've said the wrong thing because her word count suddenly dropped from paragraphs to single letters. My heart continues to sink further and further to the deepest depths of despair and misery. I just want her to be my girl again. I love her so much. I would do absolutely anything for this woman at any given moment on any day. I am devastated. I feel like I may not survive this. I want her so bad, and this lack of reciprocation is a pill I don't feel I can swallow.

I love you so god damned much. I want to hold you, I want to kiss you, I want to keep you safe, I want to tell you and remind you of how amazing you are each and every day, I want to make you smile, I want to make you laugh, I want to keep you warm, I want to make you feel better when you're sad, I want to take care of you when you're sick...please let me...why won't you let me? Please let me. Please. Please. Please. Please. 

I tear up as I type this...you mean absolutely everything to me and that will never change. Please give me another chance. I'm different now, J. I've been changing for a while. I know we can be happy. 

Please reconsider this decision....PLEASE.  

 Nights in white satin,
Never reaching the end,
Letters I've written,
Never meaning to send.

Beauty I'd always missed
With these eyes before,
Just what the truth is
I can't say anymore.

'Cause I love you,
Yes, I love you,
Oh, how, I love you.

Gazing at people,
Some hand in hand,
Just what I'm going thru
They can understand.

Some try to tell me
Thoughts they cannot defend,
Just what you want to be
You will be in the end,

And I love you,
Yes, I love you,
Oh, how, I love you.
Oh, how, I love you.

Nights in white satin,
Never reaching the end,
Letters I've written,
Never meaning to send.

Beauty I'd always missed
With these eyes before,
Just what the truth is
I can't say anymore.

'Cause I love you,
Yes, I love you,
Oh, how, I love you.
Oh, how, I love you.

'Cause I love you,
Yes, I love you,
Oh, how, I love you.
Oh, how, I love you.