Forlorn

There's too much of nothing
So forlorn remains the space inside of my heart
That I keep in hopes that this won't remain such a lonely place

I can't stay
I have no reason left to stay here
There's no one left that sees any value left in me

I wake up with this face
And this mood can and will only make it harder
To smile, to go on, be nice and bring people into my space

I don't know
Why it always has to be this way
There's no hope left that things will ever, ever change

Goodbye
To the friends I will never make
Goodbye
To the loves that left me astray
Goodbye
To the friends who went away
Goodbye
To the loves I left in the rain

The sky falls on this place
As I stand alone in complete disgrace
Wipe clean and pat dry--I wish I could get another try

With this brain
I can't see how the old me won't be mourned
It seems now that place inside me will always be forlorn

Goodbye
To the friends I will never make
Goodbye
To the loves that left me astray
Goodbye
To the friends who went away
Goodbye
To the loves I left in the rain

These Feelings Inside

I've been living so long with these feelings inside
That I almost believe that they're me
I've been drowning so long in these feelings I hold
That they've carved the course and carried me--all along--wherever they go

These feelings inside--subtly clenching at the reigns
Again won't let the love or the joy get near
I missed it when it wasn't here, it came, and now it is gone
I am now staring at the darkest of my fears

These feelings inside--they turn the day into night
Things were brighter and were better once upon a time
I can scream into the void and I can scream at the sky
I have finally realized that the truth I knew was always a lie

These feelings inside--stubborn as I mourn in the dark
Crying for the death of this place
Made of stone, but intricate and absent of thought
I've always felt so lost in this cold

These feelings inside--blocking old memories
I call out for an angel, someone who knows the real me
Dead for the last time--I condemn all these feelings inside
I want the reigns, I want the right, to burn it all down

These feelings inside.