This is the year.

This is the year it all changes. This is the year I stop caring what people think. This is the year I am no longer needy. This is the year that I don't give a fuck who is in or who is no longer in my life.  This is the year I no longer cling for dear life to petty and meaningless friendships or relationships dissolved or not. This is the year I stop kissing ass, sucking up, getting walked all over, and actually tell people what I really think of them. This is the year I do it for me, and not for a pat on the back. This is the year my bank account smiles back at me. This is the year I become a real man. This is the year I write off all those who aren't worth it. This is the year I give none of them a second thought. This is the year I reclaim my spine and backbone. This is the year I take back what's mine. This is the year I shed no more tears. This is the year I reclaim good health both physical and mental. This is the year I am fine and proud with being me. This is the year I finally live. This is the year I am no longer afraid to smile. This is the year that I find the positive. This is the year where I finally make it about me. This is the year I finally rejuvenate in mind, body and spirit. And this is the year of no looking back. This is the year to erase the deeds and memories of all years past. This is the year that I get back on course. This is the year I take my life and my bright future I have always dreamed of back. This is the year I prove who I really am and who I am really worth. This is the year to put all past unfulfilled resolutions and aspirations to shame.

Angry Ranting Bullshit

Trying not to let this all get to me

I don't owe you any apologies

I got my fucking knives

They are rusty and dull

My patience with this bullshit is fuckin' void and null

So punch me in the face and cut off my dick

Rip off my balls and glue on a wick

Dowse me in gasoline and throw me away

Ignore me no matter how much I feel I have left to say

I'm so tired of this and I am tired of you

I'm tired of everyone and you've got nothing to prove

I know you all too well and I wish I could avoid it

I now fuckin' hate everything, tell me is this what you wanted?!?!

We are on the other side now

We have nothing left to say now

Cyanide thrown into my eyes

Please ignore my bitching cries

There is nothing good about this fucking world

There is nothing good about the people walking this fuckin' Earth

I tried to see the good

But I must've misunderstood

There is no room for me

There is no hope for me

You and your positivism are a shiny fuckin' prize

One that I only know how to despise

We are on the other side now

We have nothing left to say now

Cyanide thrown into my eyes

Please ignore my bitching cries

 There was love in this heart once

There was joy in this voice once

Not everything was so dark and grey

You weren't so far away

How does it feel to have the upper hand?

How does it feel to watch me break?

Are you fuckin' proud now?

To watch me cry and pout

We are on the other side now

We have nothing left to say now

Cyanide thrown into my eyes

Please ignore my bitching cries

We are on the other side now

We have nothing left to say now

Cyanide thrown into my eyes

Please ignore my bitching cries