The Cycle

Again this morning, I felt alone
I look around to see a truth that follows
Silent rooms

Again tonight, the tears just fall
This reticence speaks to me in volumes
Lovely gloom

Oh, why? Why?
Why, oh why?
Why..why?
Can't this pain just die?

And once again, I fight through the day
Never burning off this sorrow
And just one more time, I'm up very late
Longing for a quick and painless ending
And just one more time, I do try again
With more shit and piss piled upon my plate
And it won't ever change
Just another lonely day

I see no reason to even move
So antagonistic is this sunrise
I don't care

This reality into which I'm bound
Is so desolate and feels so hollow
No one's there

Oh, why? Why?
Why, oh why?
Why..why?
Please just tell me why

And once again, I fight through the day
Never burning off this sorrow
And just one more time, I'm up very late
Longing for a quick and painless ending
And just one more time, I do try again
With more shit and piss piled upon my plate
And it won't ever change
Just another lonely day

Why, why?
Why, oh why?
Why..why?
It just never dies

And once again, I fight through the day
Never burning off this sorrow
And just one more time, I'm up very late
Longing for a quick and painless ending
And just one more time, I do try again
With even more shit and piss piled upon my plate
And it won't ever change
It's just another lonely day

Expunge

Catastrophe - That's all I am

I'm never free - I realized

 Something I hoped for

In ashes on the floor

It's gone

I'm done

I dreamed of a world

Where it's never raining

I watched it die

I saw open spaces

Where there were no traces

Of he who died

Demon from above - He steals the light

Lost of all resolve - I'm unwilling to fight

 I cannot go on..I cannot go on..no longer go on

 Something I hoped for

In ashes on the floor

It's gone

I'm done

I dreamed of a world

Where it's never raining

I watched it die

I saw open spaces

Where there were no traces

Of he who died

Who died..who died

Who's he who died?

Don't worry - He died

Who's he who died?

He was a lie!

It's gone - I'm done

It's gone - I'm done

It's gone - I'm done

It's gone

Gone

I'm done

Serrated

Placed, woke up in this space
Dreaming of that face
Running out of patience
While weeping for those thoughts erased
All emotions run, the worst has just begun
Stuck in this dreary microcosm
I feel my soul's on fire

This is not the world I once knew
I have never felt so unglued
No one here believes
All my trust is gone

Why keep trying, I know I'll never fuckin' make it

I am trapped in a world full of shit, I know this now!
I am indeed in a world full of shit, I know!

Blank, surrendered for my own sake
Again in my master's wake
Hold me back before I fuck it up
Tell me now, am I too late?
With such brittle knees
The task sits incomplete
"I never gave a fuck"
Once said a brilliant liar

My impression always meant shit
I know I've always lacked good judgment
Just ignore me, please
That's all I ever will deserve

I tried again and again I didn't fuckin' make it

I am trapped in a world full of shit, I know this now!
I am indeed in a world of shit, I know!

I once cared, but as you can see, these feelings have left me
I once cared, but as you can see, these feelings have left me
I once cared, but as you can see, these feelings have left me
I once cared, but as you can see, these endearing feelings have all died!

Murky, bloody, muddied!
These tepid waters stewing irrevocably with ambiguous rage which irks and must be known
You can't heal this pain, you can't heal this pain
God has again won, yet he won't get out of my way

Tell me why
Tell me why
Tell me why
Tell me why!!!

I once cared, but as you can see, these feelings have left me
I once cared, but as you can see, these feelings have left me
I once cared, but as you can see, these feelings have left me
I once cared, but as you can see, these endearing feelings have all died

Have died..all died..