Everlasting Tear

Once I swore that I'd never ever get old
In all my worst dreams, I'm always alone
Now I'm my weakest, the skin is trembling
And now the fog is so quickly thickening

Dark room, eyes open softly
Scent in the air cries at me
A heart that's bleeding
A heart I can't glue
I'll pretend I'm someone else

I am aware this is all I will ever know
The story unfolds as the spirit dies
I am aware this is all I will ever know
Your slave again complies

Offering their guidance through the forest blindly
On the other side awaits relief
Precious moments that need no mentioning
Have spilled their guts all over me

A heart that's bleeding
A heart I cannot glue
Why won't they let me rest?

I am aware this is all I will ever know
The story unfolds as the spirit dies
I am aware this is all I will ever know
Your slave again complies

I am aware this is all I will ever know
The story unfolds as the spirit dies
I am aware this is all I will ever know
Your slave again complies

I am aware this is all I will ever know
The story unfolds as the spirit dies
I am aware this is all I will ever know
Your slave again complies

Your slave again complies

Death again complies..

Begging In The Street

I am naked in the bloody pool

I am dirty in the street

I am hungry and so thirsty

Crying and so very lonely

I have found my mother's doorstep

Begging pretty, pretty please

I want so much what no one will give me

Slame the door in my musky face

This is not what I fuckin' planned for

Bring me back to the drawing board

This is not what I planned to happen

Lay down to die on my mother's floor

I am left for dead begging, dying in the street

Surrounded my the very dirt I swore to never meet

I am left for dead begging, dying in the street

Let everyone down, giving in, admitting my own defeat

Everyone good and bad I've ever known

Turned their back on me in a fit of disgust

Good for them if I do say so myself

For I know I would of done the same

All out of chances, the game is over now

Let me spin the wheel just one more time

Nothing to win, nothing left to lose

Fell through the fox hole all over again

This is not what I fuckin' planned for

Help come out of this a fuckin' champ

This is not what I fuckin' planned to happen

No genie swimmin' out of my rusty lamp

I am left for dead begging, dying in the street

Surrounded my the very dirt I swore to never meet

I am left for dead begging, dying in the street

Let everyone down, giving in, admitting my own defeat

All alone - it hurts so much

Hated - despised - it hurts so much

Ignored - it hurts so much

All alone - it hurts so much

My life hurts me so much

My Fuck List

Fuck niggers. Fuck bums. Fuck politics. Fuck money. Fuck cats. Fuck arrogance. Fuck dry mouth. Fuck judgement. Fuck holidays. Fuck babies. Fuck school. Fuck onions. Fuck sports. Fuck me. Fuck society. Fuck anxiety. Fuck noise. Fuck spicks. Fuck cold. Fuck heat. Fuck wind. Fuck odors. Fuck alcohol. Fuck greed. Fuck food. Fuck sex. Fuck women. Fuck men. Fuck work. Fuck toys. Fuck government. Fuck laws. Fuck rules. Fuck the police. Fuck insects. Fuck jews. Fuck sand. Fuck the radio. Fuck love. Fuck prison. Fuck freedom. Fuck sesame street. Fuck playgrounds. Fuck cell phones. Fuck stairs. Fuck elevators. Fuck buses. Fuck hospitals. Fuck overpopulation. Fuck board games. Fuck the elderly. Fuck happily ever after. Fuck fairy tales. Fuck bright colors. Fuck the internet. Fuck computers. Fuck birds. Fuck everything.