I haven't felt much like writing over the past month. Since my last post, all I've wanted to do was focus on executing the practices I mentioned at that time. Since that time, I've continued to do my exercises, focus on positive thinking, focus on school and just working on me.
Things are going okay. I actually met someone on OKCupid this month, though I wasn't actively looking. It was cool at first, but I stopped seeing her because she was crazy. Her name was Jamie, she was almost 2 years older than me, and a complete fucking nut job. She lives at home with her dad, she has no job, has no aspirations about going back to school, has had 3 kids with different fathers that she lost custody of, has a suspended driver's license from not paying child support, has previously spent over a month in a Colorado jail, believes she is going to start a "Universal Religion" and is engaged in an active pursuit to obtain followers online. I just couldn't do it. I had to remove her on Facebook and stop talking to her. How am I bettering myself or my life by being with someone like that?
I am just going to continue to do what I have been doing. I will continue to not care what people think, not care who is or is not in my life, not care about the past, and not dwell on what I no longer have. It has made my relationship with my family improve, it has helped my self-esteem, and has also helped me create an overall positive outlook. I will meet someone nice when the time is right; someone who is right for me and isn't insane.
