I Dreamed..

I dreamed this day would never come

I dreamed I learned my lesson years ago

I dreamed of dreaming different dreams today

I dreamed these feelings would never show

I dreamed she was at my front door

 I dreamed I would not have regrets anymore

I dreamed I woke up and this was all a dream

I dreamed the happiest days of my life would forever gleam

From the moment we laid eyes upon one another

I promised myself I would never hurt her or ever be a bother

I vowed to be the best partner I could ever be

I fell short in every way, always blind-never able to see

My worst days are here and her brightest days have come

They say it is always the darkest just before the fuckin' dawn

I know now my happiness was her misery

Her happiness is mine

I wanted to be the best partner I could ever be

I wanted to make her smile and only brought her misery

Now I am alone and I'm not even in her thoughts

As I pine over her as if it were a persistent fuckin' cough

My pain is sure to only make her recovery easier

She deserves nothing but the best

As she resents me for all the horrible things I said to her

Putting all the pain I caused to rest

I had horrible habits of speaking out of line when my feelings were hurt

I hate myself for things I've said though I never meant a word

I promised myself repeatedly that the lesson had been learned

I fucked up and fell off course repeatedly, this heartbreak has been earned

I dreamed this day would never come

I dreamed I learned my lesson years ago

I dreamed of dreaming different dreams today

I dreamed these feelings would never show