Irreversible Series of Mistakes

I've built these towering walls to seclude me from everyone else
So tall and thick it drown out my cries
I have always wanted to be loved by a precious angel, one of a kind
As she found me, decided she could not help me and now I'm left right here where I began

I did this to myself, I have dug my own grave

I need a gun, need a push right in front of a train
I need a gun, a detonator to ignite and explode all my brains
I just can't run away from this torture, this pain, there's no where to run

I'd love to retrace my steps and steer clear of all this shit
The destiny I deface refuses to say goodbye
And no matter how I prove I'm sorry, there is no way I can get through to you
And it makes me so unhappy and so lonely to accept this is the truth

You won't allow me to prove myself, you look at me like I'm shit

I need a gun, need a push right in front of a train
I need a gun, a detonator to ignite and explode all my brains
I just can't run away from this torture, this pain, there's no where to run

No more guilt, I can't take it!

I hate this fucking world, grab a gun, put a bullet in my brain
I hate this curse, can't be reversed, I know I'm insane
There's just no way out of here, no, there is no way out
This is my hell!!!

I need a gun, I need a gun, I need a gun to escape this!