Purge

 To all I've known

I wish you well

I've let you down

I'm off to hell

 These unseemly thoughts

That fill my head

Let's drown them out

It'll stay this way

It's not a phase

These horrid visions

So palpable

To all I've known

I curse this spell

Escape the truth..escape the noose

A tear within a box of dreams

Leads to a life so beautiful

I've kept the hope and all it means

To lead a life so wonderful

A founded wish to watch it bleed

And wash away the terrible

 It's over now

No cause to wait

Everything is now disposable 

To this whole world

I wish you well

Can't change these facts

Or un-ring this bell

 These voices now

That fill my head

Let's drown them out

It's the way it is

Please not like this

Just take me home

I wanna go

To this whole world

It's all dispelled

I'm blaming you..blame all of you

A tear within a box of dreams

Leads to a life so beautiful

I've kept the hope and all it means

To lead a life so wonderful

A founded wish to watch it bleed

And wash away the terrible

 It's over now

No cause to wait

Everything is now disposable

I wish you well..I curse this spell

I wish you well..it's all dispelled

To all I've known

I wish you well

Please never show the cards you're dealt

This world so cruel and full of spite

I've drowned it out

I've begged for change

But it's too late

I've seen what's next

So palpable

To this whole world

Just go to hell

I'm purged of you..of all of you

A tear within a box of dreams

Leads to a life so beautiful

I've kept the hope and all it means

To lead a life so wonderful

A founded wish to watch it bleed

And wash away the terrible

 It's over now

No cause to wait

Everything is now disposable

To all so cursed and disposable

Please take your leave of me

To all so cursed and disposable

Please take your leave of me

To all so cursed and disposable

Please take your leave of me

To all so cursed and disposable
Know it's not you, it's me

I get it

I knew it on that dark night

The second your face lit up from the dome light

A girl who had all her ducks in a row

About to meet the epitome of everything that's wrong

When the world let me in, I had the best intentions

When the world gave me life and ability I oppressed it

I chose to take my brain cells and use 'em for SHIIIIIIIIIT!

Use them for shit

I knew it on that dark night

When again your face lit up in the sports bar lights

A girl happy, content with nothing but smarts that shined bright

Buying fucking beers for a sack of human garbage

When the world let me in, I had the best of intentions

To change the world, take all the pain and erase it

But instead I learned about drugs and decided 'fuck it'

I used up my motivation, inspiration, dedication and submerged it in SHIIIIIIIIT!

In shiiiiit!

Yeah, I am in love with a girl who's smarter than me and

I would give anything for this amazing girl who's out of my league and

I'd give anything to one day make this girl proud of me and

Oh, won't that day ever fucking come?

I knew it on that dark night

The second your face lit up from the dome light

A girl who had all her ducks in a row

About to meet the epitome of everything that's wrong

Oh, I knew it on that dark night

When again your face lit up in the sports bar lights

A girl happy, content with nothing but with such smarts that shine bright

Buying fucking beers for a man who has nothing but dreams for more than something

Believe me, please!

Believe me, please! Yeah, baby please!

Believe me, baby, believe me, baby!

Please, please please!

Yes!

Please, please please...

I knew it on that dark night

The second your face lit up from the dome light

A girl who had all her ducks in a row

About to meet the epitome of everything that's wrong

I knew it on that dark night

Your face dimmed by the dark against the domelight

Your scent welcoming with your eyes so dazzling

I knew I had to have you.

And I get it. I get it.

Some say I'm not the best one,

Some say I'm the worst one

For me you are the only one

And I have not given up

I love you, baby

The Pit

Holding my breath and my face is turning blue

Better to die alone than die here next to you

Vision's becoming blurred and fogged

At least I can't focus on all the bad I've done

In a world so disheveled, without a single answer

Take me back from whence I came!

I see what's not

And I know the not

Swallowed up by a lifetime of lies

Now these days I never dream

Bothered by what all this means

Addicted and yearning for all I despise

Stuck in this pit I scream and I squirm

Waiting for the gas to spark and to burn

Disillusioned and miserable, aren't we all?

Only I'm not afraid to show my feelings anymore

Throat is closing up and airway is clogged

Unable to confess to all the horrible shit I've done 

In a world so disheveled, without a single answer

Take me back from whence I came!

I see what's not

And I know the not

Swallowed up by a lifetime of lies

Now these days I never dream

Bothered by what all this means

Addicted and yearning for all I despise

Stuck in this pit I scream and I squirm

Waiting for the gas to spark and to burn

I see what's not

And I know the not

Swallowed up by a lifetime of lies

Now these days I never dream

Bothered by what all this means

Addicted and yearning for all I despise

Stuck in this pit I scream and I squirm

Waiting for the gas to spark and to burn

 

Anyway

I never meant to cause you any trouble
I never meant to disrespect you in anyway
I never meant to bring grief to that smile
I'd race to fix it, no matter what, in any single way

Anyway, anyway

Only want to see you smile and laugh in the same old way

Anyway, anyway

The only way to make this right is to fix it how?
I feel the animosity from across the room
I know that it's what I deserve without any question
But still, I'll say or do what I must to fix this mess in any single way

Anyway, anyway

Only want to hear that voice I'm used to in that same old way

Anyway, anyway

I feel like I've known you forever
I feel like I've known you for even longer
I feel the pain I have caused you
The only way I can mend is to help ease your pain in any single way

Anyway, anyway

It's such a shame that on this day I have allowed you to feel this way
And I will fix this fucking mess in any single way!

Fecal Feelings

Fuck you, die now, scumbag shit breath

Leave me alone 'cause I'm tired of you

Get off my back, you smell of shit

You can't fire me because I QUIT

 

You do not know how I feel

You cannot fathom what I feel

Anger and intensity, a stirring pot

You are all what I am not

 

Why not die with me?

Why not die with me?

Why don't you sink with me?

 

I'm glued to your face if for all the wrong reasons

A belt from a pipe won't hold the weight

Bits of wadded tissue and flakes of shit

You can't fire me because I QUIT

 

Never told you what I want

Never told you what I got

Tell me now as I cringe and turn

Silence makes for the best of burns

 

Why not die with me?

Why not die with me?

Why don't you sink with me?



Senseless Weather (Inside and Out)

The soil outside is growing putrid and lies in waste

The sky above is growing dark in rings and shades of gray

The rain falls so hard outside that I cannot even think

This head of mine is such a dangerous place

 

I once knew who I was in a time so long ago

I once knew who my friends were but now I do not know

I am the CEO of a place where no one goes

I am the owner and the proprietor of this

EVER..EXPANDING..SHIT..HOLE 

 

I tried and tried to set it straight

But the harder that I try the more that negates

I tried this time to live a life of truth

And it seems this time that God burned all the clues

I tried and tried to be my best for you

The best for me, my family for your world too

I tried this time to know for sure

But the answers all remain behind several locked doors

 

The fire burnt out releasing a puff of smoke

The chimney seems clogged as I fall over and choke

Slowly, surely the air begins to clear

But still I'm all alone and worse, I'm still locked in here

 

What I would give to be somebody else

What I would give to know some other kind of stress

I am the CEO of a place where no one goes

I am the proud prisoner and proprietor of this

FUCKING..SHIT..HOLE!

 

 

 

I Suck At Everything

I suck at everything

I’m a piece of shit

I suck at everything

I fucking quit

I suck at everything

I hate the world

I suck at everything

I’m a sissy fucking girl

I suck at everything

I suck at life, I hate you all, you make me sick

Leave this place right away, or I’ll bite off your dick

I live my days decomposing in your grandma’s cunt

If you need me to, I’d be glad to be more blunt

I suck at everything

This world is not meant for me

I suck at everything

The anger clings like shit onto me

I suck at everything

You can never understand me

I’ve fucking had it

You will die before me

I suck at life, I will no longer be made a fool

I refuse to try again, just for you to watch me lose

I carry a curse that won’t wear thin

Only your pain can make me grin

I suck at everything

I’m the brunt of your joke

I suck at everything

I’m gonna watch as you choke

I suck at everything

This is how it always will be

So fucking fed up

This is not how it should be

I tried so hard

This is why it pains me

Keep getting up

This is why it infuriates me

You knock me down again

That is why I’m angry

You never lose

That is why you’re dying

Right now, here in front of me

I hear you scream

This is so relaxing

The soothing sounds

Of your life so slowly ending

Greaser Sleeze

Bleeding out on the floors of nowhere
In the wake, in the dawn, of nowhere
Pushing hard, pushing fast to nowhere
You'll always find me here, in nowhere

Die..die..die..die..

On the phone, all alone in nowhere
Growing old in the cold of nowhere
Drink your tea of ecstasy in nowhere
Say your piece as I grieve in nowhere

Why..why..why..why..

We are..dead heart..bad start..

Dead heeeeart!!!