Writting through falling and sobbing tears

You picked me up, and showed me around a world, a place I'd later learn was foul

Now you're nowhere to be found

A hole so far deep and filled 

In these days I feel I need you most

You just rot and decay

You left me here to stay

And these feelings won't go away!

Now I know what to expect in these changing times

Stuck here without a paddle navigating blind 

Wish so badly you were still here to see

To at least take some of the pressure off of me

The place I was born is only getting worse

And like a child I wish I had your hand to hold

What's done cannot be undone

Just suck it up and move the fuck on

You were there to show me a side so innocent, so fun, full of joy, but now

Now you're nowhere to be found

Buried in a hole 2,500 miles away

And in these days I feel most afraid

You just rot and decay

You left me here to stay

These awful feelings refuse to go away!

Now I know what to expect in these changing times

Stuck here without a paddle navigating blind 

Wish so badly you were still here to see

To at least take some of the pressure off of me

The place I was born is only getting worse

And like a child I wish I had your hand to hold

What's done cannot be undone

Just suck it up and move the fuck on

As I ponder my own life, what is it I want from this?

Can any good ever come from this?

As I try and find my place in space, will an answer ever come?

Or are the best days over and done?

Now I know what to expect in these changing times

Stuck here without a paddle navigating blind 

Wish so badly you were still here to see

To at least take some of the pressure off of me

The place I was born is only getting worse

And like a child I wish I had your hand to hold

What's done cannot be undone

Just suck it up and move the fuck on