It is time to stop all this directionless nonsense. I need to find a way to ease this anxiety and this stress. I know as much as I ever will that I want this no more. I and it's time to take control. I can't sit back and expect it all to work itself out. Even if there's a slice of pie in the future that waits, it can't change what I face today.
It is time to stop all this relapse. It's my time to do something for me. It won't be convenient. But it will help to turn shit around. I need strength and I need it right now. I need confidence, need to get rid of this smell of shame and worthlessness. I need to stop caring what others think and whether their stake in my life blossoms or fades. Can't let this shit mean anything.
It is time to find out my reasons. I need to find a way out of this cell. My life is such a shit storm. I need a place that I can call my own. I need to find the light. I need to find the way to enjoy life. I need to find my calling. Right now. This shit has to end right now. I need to get the fuck out of here right now. Spare me from this un-pleasantry right now.
If I can't get what I want from this life, I'd rather be dead.
I think this is what you call a breakthrough. I found mine yesterday. You need to do what's right for YOU.
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