Heart breaking again

I wanted Jenn to have a good time at DragonCon and still do. I understand this is something she has been looking forward to for at least ten years, I knew she was meeting a friend there, that she would be busy and not really have time to talk.

But I did not see this coming. Why is she ignoring me? Why did she remove me on Facebook and block me on kik? What could I have possibly done to her now? I am 100% devoted to this girl. She is all I want. My heart is aching and I want to understand what is happening. I love her to no end and this is killing me yet again.

I am far from perfect, but I don't deserve this.

I get it

I knew it on that dark night

The second your face lit up from the dome light

A girl who had all her ducks in a row

About to meet the epitome of everything that's wrong

When the world let me in, I had the best intentions

When the world gave me life and ability I oppressed it

I chose to take my brain cells and use 'em for SHIIIIIIIIIT!

Use them for shit

I knew it on that dark night

When again your face lit up in the sports bar lights

A girl happy, content with nothing but smarts that shined bright

Buying fucking beers for a sack of human garbage

When the world let me in, I had the best of intentions

To change the world, take all the pain and erase it

But instead I learned about drugs and decided 'fuck it'

I used up my motivation, inspiration, dedication and submerged it in SHIIIIIIIIT!

In shiiiiit!

Yeah, I am in love with a girl who's smarter than me and

I would give anything for this amazing girl who's out of my league and

I'd give anything to one day make this girl proud of me and

Oh, won't that day ever fucking come?

I knew it on that dark night

The second your face lit up from the dome light

A girl who had all her ducks in a row

About to meet the epitome of everything that's wrong

Oh, I knew it on that dark night

When again your face lit up in the sports bar lights

A girl happy, content with nothing but with such smarts that shine bright

Buying fucking beers for a man who has nothing but dreams for more than something

Believe me, please!

Believe me, please! Yeah, baby please!

Believe me, baby, believe me, baby!

Please, please please!

Yes!

Please, please please...

I knew it on that dark night

The second your face lit up from the dome light

A girl who had all her ducks in a row

About to meet the epitome of everything that's wrong

I knew it on that dark night

Your face dimmed by the dark against the domelight

Your scent welcoming with your eyes so dazzling

I knew I had to have you.

And I get it. I get it.

Some say I'm not the best one,

Some say I'm the worst one

For me you are the only one

And I have not given up

I love you, baby

J.B.

You were in my dream last night..
And I really don't know where it came from
All I know is it must mean something
Girl, you were in my dream last night

Everything about it felt so real
I can't describe the chills that it made me feel
And now I want you so bad, I'm willing to steal
Girl, you were in my dream last night

That single kiss we shared
All those years back buried in the sand
Those young feelings we had
The time we shared that I did not forget

I just can't seem to get you off my mind
To try rid myself of this desire would be a crime
I have strong desire and I want to make you mine
Girl, you were in my mother fucking dream last night!!

I know my life was meant for more than this
This nightmare needs to be destroyed and
I miss you so much I just can't ignore it and
There's a reason you were in my dream last night!!

That single kiss we shared
All those years back buried in the sand
Those young feelings we had
The time we shared that I did not forget

This feeling has to be real
I can't rid myself of all this temptation I feel
I want so bad to see your face now
Please be mine, right here, right now!

Girl, you were in my dream last night