Want it all to end (inspired by Maynard and my own feelings at the moment)

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Never Again

I hate that side of myself. What was I thinking for all these years? How in the fuck was I ever able to look myself in the mirror? She is it. All I want. Now. Until the end of time. Until the Earth stops turning.

Go ahead

It's amazing how fast minds can change
It's amazing how fed up we can get
I offered my most heart-felt apologies
But now my face is turning red
You can fuck off and die now for all I fucking care

Go ahead, go ahead

I knew I had made a few mistakes, though they were minor
I went above, and beyond, girl to try and rectify it
I shared everything I had with you, never turned you away
But like a pile of batshit, you scooped me up and thew me out

Go ahead, go ahead

Now, babe I know, I know I am the bad guy
That's the nature of this game
You wait for one mistake and toss the guy away
That's okay with me now, girl, that will be just fine

Go ahead, Go ahead

Throw your tantrum, throw it hard
The only one losing this bullshit battle in the end is you

Go ahead, go ahead

I will be just fine knowing that this friendship is now dead

Anyway

I never meant to cause you any trouble
I never meant to disrespect you in anyway
I never meant to bring grief to that smile
I'd race to fix it, no matter what, in any single way

Anyway, anyway

Only want to see you smile and laugh in the same old way

Anyway, anyway

The only way to make this right is to fix it how?
I feel the animosity from across the room
I know that it's what I deserve without any question
But still, I'll say or do what I must to fix this mess in any single way

Anyway, anyway

Only want to hear that voice I'm used to in that same old way

Anyway, anyway

I feel like I've known you forever
I feel like I've known you for even longer
I feel the pain I have caused you
The only way I can mend is to help ease your pain in any single way

Anyway, anyway

It's such a shame that on this day I have allowed you to feel this way
And I will fix this fucking mess in any single way!

The end of the world

Those who loved the unclear
Learn so fast, they all got sick
This life I lead is so lonely
It keeps me stuck inside here
No one can ever love me,  pirriah

Fecal Feelings

Fuck you, die now, scumbag shit breath

Leave me alone 'cause I'm tired of you

Get off my back, you smell of shit

You can't fire me because I QUIT

 

You do not know how I feel

You cannot fathom what I feel

Anger and intensity, a stirring pot

You are all what I am not

 

Why not die with me?

Why not die with me?

Why don't you sink with me?

 

I'm glued to your face if for all the wrong reasons

A belt from a pipe won't hold the weight

Bits of wadded tissue and flakes of shit

You can't fire me because I QUIT

 

Never told you what I want

Never told you what I got

Tell me now as I cringe and turn

Silence makes for the best of burns

 

Why not die with me?

Why not die with me?

Why don't you sink with me?



Senseless Weather (Inside and Out)

The soil outside is growing putrid and lies in waste

The sky above is growing dark in rings and shades of gray

The rain falls so hard outside that I cannot even think

This head of mine is such a dangerous place

 

I once knew who I was in a time so long ago

I once knew who my friends were but now I do not know

I am the CEO of a place where no one goes

I am the owner and the proprietor of this

EVER..EXPANDING..SHIT..HOLE 

 

I tried and tried to set it straight

But the harder that I try the more that negates

I tried this time to live a life of truth

And it seems this time that God burned all the clues

I tried and tried to be my best for you

The best for me, my family for your world too

I tried this time to know for sure

But the answers all remain behind several locked doors

 

The fire burnt out releasing a puff of smoke

The chimney seems clogged as I fall over and choke

Slowly, surely the air begins to clear

But still I'm all alone and worse, I'm still locked in here

 

What I would give to be somebody else

What I would give to know some other kind of stress

I am the CEO of a place where no one goes

I am the proud prisoner and proprietor of this

FUCKING..SHIT..HOLE!