Fuckless

Yes, I'm that cunt that whines and whines
Bitches that she's fat before she even dines
Grew up sheltered by garbled nerves

Yes, I am prone to these fits of rage
Cursed before I even knew my age
Sleepless and clawing at the walls all night

I no longer give a fuck
I'm driving off the cliff
And I have no desire to say goodbye so fuck it

Yes, I'm that girl you avoid in school
And I am the result of obeying rules
And if I could do it over I'd just whine

Yes, I know there's no hope for me
And I don't care enough to beg or plead
I have no fucks left to give away

I no longer give a fuck
I'm driving off the cliff
And I have no desire to say goodbye so fuck it

I no longer give a fuck
I'm driving off the cliff
And I have no desire to say goodbye so fuck it

Fuckless

I no longer give a fuck
I'm driving off the cliff
And I have no desire to say goodbye so fuck it

I no longer give a fuck
I'm driving off the cliff
And I have no desire to say goodbye so fuck it

Fuckless

Purge

 To all I've known

I wish you well

I've let you down

I'm off to hell

 These unseemly thoughts

That fill my head

Let's drown them out

It'll stay this way

It's not a phase

These horrid visions

So palpable

To all I've known

I curse this spell

Escape the truth..escape the noose

A tear within a box of dreams

Leads to a life so beautiful

I've kept the hope and all it means

To lead a life so wonderful

A founded wish to watch it bleed

And wash away the terrible

 It's over now

No cause to wait

Everything is now disposable 

To this whole world

I wish you well

Can't change these facts

Or un-ring this bell

 These voices now

That fill my head

Let's drown them out

It's the way it is

Please not like this

Just take me home

I wanna go

To this whole world

It's all dispelled

I'm blaming you..blame all of you

A tear within a box of dreams

Leads to a life so beautiful

I've kept the hope and all it means

To lead a life so wonderful

A founded wish to watch it bleed

And wash away the terrible

 It's over now

No cause to wait

Everything is now disposable

I wish you well..I curse this spell

I wish you well..it's all dispelled

To all I've known

I wish you well

Please never show the cards you're dealt

This world so cruel and full of spite

I've drowned it out

I've begged for change

But it's too late

I've seen what's next

So palpable

To this whole world

Just go to hell

I'm purged of you..of all of you

A tear within a box of dreams

Leads to a life so beautiful

I've kept the hope and all it means

To lead a life so wonderful

A founded wish to watch it bleed

And wash away the terrible

 It's over now

No cause to wait

Everything is now disposable

To all so cursed and disposable

Please take your leave of me

To all so cursed and disposable

Please take your leave of me

To all so cursed and disposable

Please take your leave of me

To all so cursed and disposable
Know it's not you, it's me

Phoenix

Rising up
Out from these ashes
I've rid myself
Of all that's worthless

When I was there
It felt like nothing
Bring it all back
I wanna feel something
I don't even know
Why I was ever hiding
I no longer fear--I'll always remember

In the clouds
My head is swimming
Hold me down
I think I'm drifting

Desolate, empty and I'll never know
I never was nor will be shown
Gone just like after the wind has blown
You can't take away who I am now
There's nothing you can do about
Something for which I have no doubt

It always hurt more
Back when they deprived me
I'm still fuckin' here
You know you can't stop me
I'm taking what's mine
Whether or not you'll allow me
I no longer fear--I'll always remember

No need to ask
I know what my name is
No need to cry
I know that you're shameless
No need to act
I know that you're spineless
I no longer fear--I'll always remember

This is the end
This is the end
This is the end
The end of pretend..

It always hurt more
Back when they deprived me
I'm still fuckin' here
You know you can't stop me
I'm taking what's mine
Whether or not you'll allow me
I no longer fear--I'll always remember

No need to ask
I know what my name is
No need to cry
I know that you're shameless
No need to act
I know that you're spineless
I no longer fear--I'll always remember

I no longer fear--I'll always remember..

Cast Away

Do you hate the way it tastes?
Do you hate the way it feels?
Brought upon myself this time
Only the weakest minds resign

Hard to believe that I once cared
Barren of all but these lifeless stares
Burnt down, ashed up and then blown all away

I'd beg for mercy
But there's no one to give it away
I've squandered my time
Just to wind up here

Strayed
There's no time
There's nothing left
I need more
Time. Time. Time.

Sold my soul to uncover the facts
Regretted it quick and I begged for it back
A fool I am and always was in so many ways

This insidious spiral
I threw my chance away
It's spelt out right here
I've walked the plank

Strayed
There's no time
There's nothing left
I need more
Time. Time. Time.

Strayed
There's no time
There's nothing left
I need more
Time. Time. Time. Time.

I need more
Time. Time. Time.

(I've fallen)

Astray!
I'm out of time
They took what's left
I need more
Time. Time. Time. Time. Time

Time. Time. Time. Time. Time

Why?! Why?! Why?!

Embittered

How is it I ever gave a fuck?
Burn it all down, burn it all down now
How is it I ever opened this book?
Fuck it all up, fuck it all up now
Why would I even attempt this?
Burnt to the ground, burnt to the ground now
I can't change the ending
So I'm walking away, walking away now!

This is the track that runs out of road
This is the path where you're always alone

Spare me!
I gave it my all and--
This dream!
Is falling apart and--
My fears!
Are coming to get me--
I know!
There's no happy ending!

What the fuck was I thinking?
Erase all I've done, erase all I've done now
I know I'll never be happy
Knocked on the ground, knocked on the ground now
I live where it's always raining
Drown in these thoughts, drown in these thoughts now
There's no hope worth keeping
Thrown in the trash, just let it rot now!

This is the track that runs out of road
This is the path where you're always alone

Spare me!
I gave it my all and--
This dream!
Is falling apart and--
My fears!
Are coming to get me--
I know!
There's no happy ending!

Barren and devoid of life
Bittersweet goodbyes
God can't save me!

In a world that's filled with hatred
Inadvertently gaining momentum
This demise so undesired
Can't recall what I ever admired
How dare I have aspirations
Dare I ask to be considered
This uncomfortably comfortable darkness
Flowing tears lead me to jagged cliffs!

Let me jump, let me jump
Let me fall, let me fall
Let me go right now!

Spare me!
I gave it my all and--
This dream!
Is falling apart and--
My fears!
Are coming to get me--
I know!
There's no happy ending!

Spare me!
I gave this my all and--
My dreams!
Are falling apart and--
My worst fears!
Are coming to get me--
I know!
There's no happy ending!

Scrupulous

One more time I wither alone
These solemn groans
Of which no one knows
My will to persist is running so thin
Wave a flag, just fuckin' let me win

These cards - that I hold
Reappeared - ten fold
The sky always looks so dark from here..no

I can't go through this again
Where is the way out?
I have no will to pretend
So where's the way out?

To this day I'm still hearing those sounds
They haunt my dreams
Never let me sleep (let me sleep, let me sleep)
Feel destroyed - hopes continue to wither
Wave the flag, just fuckin' wave the flag

Forsake - such swine
They knew - the whole time
Why did I let them so close to me?
I will not let them get close to me..

I can't go through this again
Where is the way out?
I have no will to pretend
So where's the way out?

Where is the way out?
Get me the fuck out!

I can't go through this again
Where is the way out?
I have no will to pretend
There is no way out

The Cycle

Again this morning, I felt alone
I look around to see a truth that follows
Silent rooms

Again tonight, the tears just fall
This reticence speaks to me in volumes
Lovely gloom

Oh, why? Why?
Why, oh why?
Why..why?
Can't this pain just die?

And once again, I fight through the day
Never burning off this sorrow
And just one more time, I'm up very late
Longing for a quick and painless ending
And just one more time, I do try again
With more shit and piss piled upon my plate
And it won't ever change
Just another lonely day

I see no reason to even move
So antagonistic is this sunrise
I don't care

This reality into which I'm bound
Is so desolate and feels so hollow
No one's there

Oh, why? Why?
Why, oh why?
Why..why?
Please just tell me why

And once again, I fight through the day
Never burning off this sorrow
And just one more time, I'm up very late
Longing for a quick and painless ending
And just one more time, I do try again
With more shit and piss piled upon my plate
And it won't ever change
Just another lonely day

Why, why?
Why, oh why?
Why..why?
It just never dies

And once again, I fight through the day
Never burning off this sorrow
And just one more time, I'm up very late
Longing for a quick and painless ending
And just one more time, I do try again
With even more shit and piss piled upon my plate
And it won't ever change
It's just another lonely day